Monday, August 16, 2010
Sometimes my girlfriends and I talk about self-righteousness and pride. We know God hates it. We know we hate it- in ourselves, and in others. Yet it is a most insidious sin...creeping up, invading thoughts, manifesting itself in looks on the face. We would never say what we are thinking, but the judgment is still there. Are you with me?
I pray sometimes against my pride. I tentatively ask the Lord for release from pride. I ask for compassion and humility. While I abhor the sin that is in me, I know that I don't really want a disciplinary session from the Lord on account of my pride.
Been there, done that.
It was no fun.
Well, I guess I have been there and done that on many different occasions. You would think I would learn.
Anyway, for all of the dramatic prologue, this is just a mini-discipline session. I suppose I was getting too self-righteous. So I took a trip to Winco.
It was supposed to last 30 minutes. It took 90. We spilled grapes, pre-emptively opened a Lunchable and promptly spilled that as well, got quietly taken aside by a kind clerk and given our own check-out lane (to the verbal disapproval of two other patrons- yikes!), and had three different "if you don't stop whining, you know what will happen when we get home" whispered sessions.
I thought we were out of the danger zone. But as we walked out, with two kids and an infant carrier in the cart, I forcefully walked right into a big red pole.
The baby started crying. Rebecca dropped her Lunchable again and started crying because she thought she would be getting disciplined for spilling again. And Jackson got a bloody lip from banging his face onto the cart handle.
As I was slinking back to the car, trying to whisper kind words of comfort to my poor children, I had a tap on my arm. I literally jumped while walking. A thoughtful little boy had run after me to give me the phone I had dropped after our crash.
Humbling. Every day needs a little dose of humility. Who is up to join me for my next grocery shopping trip?
I didn't think so. :)