Yet when all feels hopeless (and I am not to live my life according to feelings!) there is still One who gives hope. Tides of despair rush through my heart at different times on different days because my focus is on me. At church yesterday, I was reminded where my focus needs to be. God is perfect and holy. He is set apart. When a human comes into contact with the Most High, his response is to fall on his face and weep, for humans are unclean and surrounded by unclean people. I cannot treat my relationship with the Father as an earthly one. I forget that He is terribly holy. But truly, that gives me comfort. God is perfectly righteous. His justice is perfect. His love is perfect, too. And I can only love Him because He first loved me.
So yesterday I was filled with hope instead of believing the lies that flit into my head. By taking the focus off of myself and my problems, and instead focusing on the character of God, my distraught spirit begins to rejoice once again.
Here is the Scripture that I will be meditating on throughout today:
"I will sing of steadfast love and justice;
to you, O Lord, I will make music.
I will ponder the way that is blameless.
Oh when will you come to me?
I will walk with integrity of heart
within my house;
I will not set before my eyes
anything that is worthless."
Ps. 101 1-3a