Do you ever get a clear glimpse of how evident your sin is?
Sometimes it just sits there like a hard-boiled egg. You think it is completely hidden under the table, but God sees it as it is, out in the open.
My son thought he would deliberately deceive me this morning. While I was out of the kitchen, he tried to hide his hard-boiled egg under the table. As I walked back into the kitchen, he greeted me with,
"Mom, look! I ate all of my egg! Wasn't that fast?"
It was, I agreed. Great job, son, I said.
After we finished breakfast and school, I happened to glance under the kitchen table. I saw a nibbled-on hardboiled egg.
I shouldn't have been shocked, but I was, a little. I sent him to his room to await discipline. His little face crumpled and his body trembled a bit. I'm sure he was mostly anticipating his discipline, but I did see a slightly new reaction, one of shame. He knew what he did was wrong, and he knew he needed restoration. This was different than hitting his sister or not obeying my command. He deliberately planned and carried out deception.
As I got to explain the Gospel to my son, truth was being impressed on my own heart as well. I saw evident parallels in my own life. How often do I plan to hide my egg under the table, believing that the Lord will not see it? And how my Lord aches at the deliberate deception! And how clearly does He see my egg, as if the table were not even there!
It humbles a Mommy's heart.
Mommy, I said, need Jesus just as much as you do. Mommy can't keep all of God's rules, just as you cannot keep all of Mommy's rules. The only One who ever kept all of the rules is Jesus Christ.
I am right there with you, son.