16 There are six things the LORD hates,
seven that are detestable to him:
17 haughty eyes,
a lying tongue,
hands that shed innocent blood,
18 a heart that devises wicked schemes,
feet that are quick to rush into evil.
Yet I persist in my haughty eyes. I persist in the other sins too, but my haughtiness is what God has been convicting me of lately.
Why is it that I so often think I Would Never? I think How Could They? I think I'm So Glad I. And I can only imagine what my God is thinking as I have those thoughts.
Yuck. To realize that I have had yet another conversation where I have been talking about or listening to how others fall short makes me frustrated with my deceitful and desperately wicked heart.
That fall is going to hurt.
But that is the sin, and here is the hope: Christ shed His blood for that sin, and all of my other sins. God is so good to convict me through the Spirit, and He is faithful and merciful to distance me from that sin, as far as the East is from the West. As I learned at a recent retreat, sin is not just saying, "I'm sorry"... it is saying, "I'm through.". That is much easier said than done, but I surely cannot do it on my own power. Let's hear it for grace!
It was this passage that God used to convict me this morning:
25And whenever you stand praying, forgive, if you have anything against anyone, so that your Father also who is in heaven may forgive you your trespasses."
If I am harboring even a little bit of bitterness, I have to confess it before the Lord can forgive me of that bitterness. OK, I think I got it.
It's Thursday. I like Thursdays.